~When I start questioning myself, my decisions and the paths I have chosen to follow, I remember something that my Grandpa told me when I was a little girl. “Make a list.” “Does the good outweigh the bad?” Even at the most trying times in my life, here in Chisana, the answer is always the same. The benefits far outweigh the disadvantages.
What living in the wilderness has taught me:
- To Survive.
- To Have Faith.
- The Difference Between Courage and Ignorance.
- To Be Honest.
- To Be Humble.
- To Believe in Me.
As I read back through the pieces of my life and memories I’ve shared with you on this blog since February… All the memories and hind-sight-thinking that comes with looking back. I’ve noticed, I’ve come a long way.
I can and will survive. To take care of them, I have to be able to take care of me. The sun always rises. Always. There is always a new day, new hope, new blessings. I await my purpose.
Courage is knowing what it is you fear, and facing it. For as long as the fear lasts and after, facing that terrible thing each and every time. Humble is easy, there is so much to learn, about everything.
I am honest with myself. There is no one more brutal when tearing away the shields. Being honest to everyone else is just the right thing to be.
I do believe in me. Knowing that I am my own worst enemy, I am on guard. I also know each time I acknowledge something else I do not know, an ignorance, the door opens to more learning and understanding. Each time I make and acknowledge a mistake, I learn and grow.
“Don’t bet against me, I wont quit.”